All in one day.
My entire life on this planet is the same thing as an entire day on this planet.
The sun is born and rises and it's a beautiful thing.
As the sun is out and living in the vastness it faces dark times and clear skies.
Sometimes the sun will never show it's face.
It's hiding because we need the ugliness and pain to respect the beautifulness of God's strength.
There are many friends on earth that cannot make it without the sun.
Flowers cannot go too long without a conversation with their best friend!
All of the connections the sun makes with this world are usually vital.
And when the sun dies and sets for the day it's also beautiful.
Sure, there are times we don't get to really see a sunset. But it's happening anyways. Amazing.
Unfortunately death is also a wonderful part of our lives. Maybe the most wonderful.
24 hours is just a summary of 240 hours, and 2400, and 24000 and so on.
Life is definitely darker and uglier at times for some, but live each day..
All in one day.
Sunday, July 4, 2010
Saturday, June 19, 2010
Expanding
Emily and I took some friends to the Oliver Winery in Bloomington. We aren't huge drinkers, but we found stuff we loved! She might like hers more than I liked mine but you know :)
My friend Joel and his girlfriend Meg came down with me. We got to tour the winery, shop, climb, eat and you know.. We had a lot of fun today. Today was a good day.
Taste test
Haha :)
It's the climb
My friend Joel and his girlfriend Meg came down with me. We got to tour the winery, shop, climb, eat and you know.. We had a lot of fun today. Today was a good day.
Taste test
Haha :)
It's the climb
Sunday, June 13, 2010
Catching me up.
I haven't typed on this internet site in a long time.
Since I've been gone..LOST is over. What a great TV show that was. I mean, I know people love to make fun of it and I get that but I don't understand how you can watch it from beginning to end and not find something from it. Oh well. I guess I don't actually care.
I've also cut certain things out of my life. Certain situations and moments and things that drag are going away. I used to think God wanted us to put up and deal with everyone and everything that comes into our little lives. I don't think that way anymore. I guess I could be nicer about it, but it will always seem mean because we're all so emotional and fickle. Oh well..another thing to work at. It's just some situations are better left alone and some people are better left in their quiet-ness or intense-ness.
I've also got a new job. A job that pays really well, but I work a lot. How am I going to go to school full time and work full time? That's a question I've wondered a lot lately. Sometimes the answer is simply..just do it. That question is so little to someone who wonders if there parents will come home or someone who wonders what a parent even is. I've just got to learn to be lazy at the right times. I'm doing alright.
My friend Joel and I meet up every Tuesday to catch up, talk and be friends. I like Joel as a friend because he's not afraid to talk about important things. We don't worry about being "men" or "bro's" or "dudes" ..we just talk about being humans. Joel's easy to talk to too. You've got to keep friendships going that feel good on both ends.
Speaking of friends, my best friend takes good pictures and that's been getting me really excited. She's cute. She'll take your pictures too if you let her!!! Check her out here: EMMY!! :)
My Mom finally got a job. She's been wanting one for a couple years now. Now if we can just get my Dad to find a better job..It feels weird that I'm working towards a degree so that I can have a job. A job to help support a family. That's got to be all that matters. At least it is for me. It feels weird updating this. I know I'm basically updating myself years from now. But if I'm not, hello.
Since I've been gone..LOST is over. What a great TV show that was. I mean, I know people love to make fun of it and I get that but I don't understand how you can watch it from beginning to end and not find something from it. Oh well. I guess I don't actually care.
I've also cut certain things out of my life. Certain situations and moments and things that drag are going away. I used to think God wanted us to put up and deal with everyone and everything that comes into our little lives. I don't think that way anymore. I guess I could be nicer about it, but it will always seem mean because we're all so emotional and fickle. Oh well..another thing to work at. It's just some situations are better left alone and some people are better left in their quiet-ness or intense-ness.
I've also got a new job. A job that pays really well, but I work a lot. How am I going to go to school full time and work full time? That's a question I've wondered a lot lately. Sometimes the answer is simply..just do it. That question is so little to someone who wonders if there parents will come home or someone who wonders what a parent even is. I've just got to learn to be lazy at the right times. I'm doing alright.
My friend Joel and I meet up every Tuesday to catch up, talk and be friends. I like Joel as a friend because he's not afraid to talk about important things. We don't worry about being "men" or "bro's" or "dudes" ..we just talk about being humans. Joel's easy to talk to too. You've got to keep friendships going that feel good on both ends.
Speaking of friends, my best friend takes good pictures and that's been getting me really excited. She's cute. She'll take your pictures too if you let her!!! Check her out here: EMMY!! :)
My Mom finally got a job. She's been wanting one for a couple years now. Now if we can just get my Dad to find a better job..It feels weird that I'm working towards a degree so that I can have a job. A job to help support a family. That's got to be all that matters. At least it is for me. It feels weird updating this. I know I'm basically updating myself years from now. But if I'm not, hello.
Friday, April 30, 2010
Not a bash, but I'm tired and have red eyes.
It's 5 am. Here we go without stopping. GO..
A lot of my friends are starting to grow into new people. I like it. I hate it.
Sometimes Ill stop and think about how it really does seem like yesterday when we were all 16 and I just got a new car.
I used to drive around with my friend Jill and make her listen to Coheed. (She grew to like a few songs don't let her lie)
I never really did anything normal, or crazy while growing up. And now as I'm almost 23..I thank God for that.
I don't smoke, I don't drink, I don't have a drink here and there, I don't get all dressed up and "go out", I get all dressed up and go to dinner or on a night walk downtown, I've never smoked weed in a garage with people while listening to Incubus, I never fell in love when I was 13, or 15, and I never did anything that I thought my parents wouldn't like, and I never went to parties, and I never tried pills.
I don't understand why most these are normal progressions as we grow up. And I don't think any of it's wrong. I was just never there, never saw it. Later in life I saw a few of those things finally ruin my parents relationship. Which doesn't help as to why I thought a lot of it was wrong. But it's not the main thing. However, I did used to think it was wrong, but now I usually just laugh and realize I've been waisting my time.
I do like things.
I like to play golf with my friend Aaron, Aaron and I can be completely off the wall and on the exact same page, every Tuesday I meet my buddy Joel at the bar and he'll have a drink and we'll talk about our lives, I like to listen to Switchfoot late at night, I like to actually watch the stars, I like to pray to God about everything, I like to sit around a room with a bunch of friends and laugh about nothing, I like to work on being a better person, I want to marry someone crazy and fun and have kids more than I want peace on earth, I like shitty music, I like playing video games with my friend Gary, I liked skateboarding from 3pm until 10pm when I was younger, I miss Jill from high school, I've liked writing my thoughts down since I was 14, I liked never dating anyone while growing up and then growing up and having all kinds of issues with girls all-at-once, I like rebuilding, I enjoyed watching basketball or listening to music when I was 14 and 15 over anything else, In high school Aaron and I used to drive around and yell at people and that was our night (inside jokes were born with our own sense of humor) and I always liked hearing people laugh, or laughing myself.
I wasn't calling anyone out, but I probably was. If I did, I didn't mean to because, well you didn't do anything. Haha
Finals week is coming and I'm right where I want to be.
A lot of my friends are starting to grow into new people. I like it. I hate it.
Sometimes Ill stop and think about how it really does seem like yesterday when we were all 16 and I just got a new car.
I used to drive around with my friend Jill and make her listen to Coheed. (She grew to like a few songs don't let her lie)
I never really did anything normal, or crazy while growing up. And now as I'm almost 23..I thank God for that.
I don't smoke, I don't drink, I don't have a drink here and there, I don't get all dressed up and "go out", I get all dressed up and go to dinner or on a night walk downtown, I've never smoked weed in a garage with people while listening to Incubus, I never fell in love when I was 13, or 15, and I never did anything that I thought my parents wouldn't like, and I never went to parties, and I never tried pills.
I don't understand why most these are normal progressions as we grow up. And I don't think any of it's wrong. I was just never there, never saw it. Later in life I saw a few of those things finally ruin my parents relationship. Which doesn't help as to why I thought a lot of it was wrong. But it's not the main thing. However, I did used to think it was wrong, but now I usually just laugh and realize I've been waisting my time.
I do like things.
I like to play golf with my friend Aaron, Aaron and I can be completely off the wall and on the exact same page, every Tuesday I meet my buddy Joel at the bar and he'll have a drink and we'll talk about our lives, I like to listen to Switchfoot late at night, I like to actually watch the stars, I like to pray to God about everything, I like to sit around a room with a bunch of friends and laugh about nothing, I like to work on being a better person, I want to marry someone crazy and fun and have kids more than I want peace on earth, I like shitty music, I like playing video games with my friend Gary, I liked skateboarding from 3pm until 10pm when I was younger, I miss Jill from high school, I've liked writing my thoughts down since I was 14, I liked never dating anyone while growing up and then growing up and having all kinds of issues with girls all-at-once, I like rebuilding, I enjoyed watching basketball or listening to music when I was 14 and 15 over anything else, In high school Aaron and I used to drive around and yell at people and that was our night (inside jokes were born with our own sense of humor) and I always liked hearing people laugh, or laughing myself.
I wasn't calling anyone out, but I probably was. If I did, I didn't mean to because, well you didn't do anything. Haha
Finals week is coming and I'm right where I want to be.
Friday, April 23, 2010
The bottle-hangman-runaround
For the ones who follow, it's crazy how we work our God out of the situations we want to put ourselves in because we aren't strong enough to deal with real life.
Nobody ever puts it all in Your hands. And maybe we shouldn't. But why do we fall into things that help us for only a few hours, or weeks? Why are we not truly trying for who we want to be?
It's crazy how you see the different sides of people when important things happen. So maybe we're supposed to act like idiots and do things we know aren't right so that we can look back and see that we've grown up? Hmm. Maybe.
Sometimes I'll hear things and those things make me sad, but then second they make me want to work on the way I react to times I have trouble dealing with things.
I usually apologize to the Infinite one for myself and all the stories I hear that hurt. If they hurt me... I can't imagine the way God feels.
Nobody ever puts it all in Your hands. And maybe we shouldn't. But why do we fall into things that help us for only a few hours, or weeks? Why are we not truly trying for who we want to be?
It's crazy how you see the different sides of people when important things happen. So maybe we're supposed to act like idiots and do things we know aren't right so that we can look back and see that we've grown up? Hmm. Maybe.
Sometimes I'll hear things and those things make me sad, but then second they make me want to work on the way I react to times I have trouble dealing with things.
I usually apologize to the Infinite one for myself and all the stories I hear that hurt. If they hurt me... I can't imagine the way God feels.
Sunday, April 11, 2010
Motion City Soundtrack (to my life)
I was hoping to have a lot of fun this weekend. I ended up having a great time from 10:30pm until 12:00am on Saturday in Evansville. Motion City Soundtrack's music has been there for me every time I've needed it. It was nice to be there in person and sing along to the songs that continue to always mean a whole lot to me.
Best part of the night? They played "Last night" and "Delirium" and "Don't call it a comeback"
Worst part of the night? They didn't play "Capital H" or "Hold me down"
"The good outweighs the bad if you stop complaining and look outside."
Best part of the night? They played "Last night" and "Delirium" and "Don't call it a comeback"
Worst part of the night? They didn't play "Capital H" or "Hold me down"
"The good outweighs the bad if you stop complaining and look outside."
Saturday, April 3, 2010
Where to next?
At the end of most "tough" things you'll evaluate the entire thing and search for the worst part of it and then dwell on it for some time. It's pretty scary when two birds in love have to part and the only thing there is to "dwell" on is how beautiful it was. It's okay to be let go in love and to let go in love. Sometimes love won't seal the deal. Sometimes you'll wake up ready to fly, but go to sleep ready to swallow the reasons you sigh. Know where you stand and someday you'll fly into someone with the same stance.
If you're not wishing the other bird the best in life, the calmest nights and for another reason to fly again, then maybe you were never in love. I love still, but love isn't selfish..I must remember. So, fly.
Words
If you're not wishing the other bird the best in life, the calmest nights and for another reason to fly again, then maybe you were never in love. I love still, but love isn't selfish..I must remember. So, fly.
Words
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