You haven't lost me yet.

I've been joking a lot about taking my first leap of faith. Maybe it's not really funny though. I mean, it is really true. For the first time in my life I'm doing something that, as funny as it may sound, God told me to do. Through heavy prayer and focus it has finally fully occurred to me that a power much bigger than I am has laid down every path and clue for me to finally quit my job. For nearly four years now I've been working at this place (that I will not put down anymore) but that I will just simply say I shouldn't be associated with anymore.
This place has, in a way, led me to being able to get my own car, move out and live on my own, buy presents, buy music, buy musical instruments, spend money to be there during important social events, stay warm, go to over thirty concerts (half of them in Ohio), take you out to dinner, go on vacations, and this place has even inadvertently kept food on my table. But the most important thing this place has done for me is let me down. It was time for me to take this 'leap' a few years ago, but I figured I had to have it. It was the only way I could make it, right? I couldn't be away from something so easy to deal with 5 days a week. I needed it! I couldn't be out 'there' alone, or I'd lose it right?
Most of the time I feel like we're just not strong enough to push through life alone. Whether you inadvertently use people, or walk beside someone hand in hand, you need another person. Sure, we'll walk alone, we'll climb alone, we'll work things out alone, we'll move into the woods and write Walden alone, we'll cry alone, we'll listen alone, and we'll even 'work' alone. The greatest thing about all of it is when you realize that you didn't seclude yourself for just yourself. Yes, you may have bettered yourself, but for what real reason? So that you could be a better person for another person..for other people.
In the end (whether the end is 3 days and your journey alone is done, or it's been 65 years and now your journey alone is done) we realize that we did everything we did by ourselves, so that we can be there for someone else. That someone else can be your wife, or husband (that you haven't even met yet, or that you see and speak to everyday and don't even know it yet). That someone could be Jesus, family, friends, and simply enough, other people. I suppose it could even be a mixture of them all. Only you know, right? I know that for me and my next step in being there for someone in a situation I know little about starts at quitting my job, and taking my first leap of faith.

*dont be afraid to make it tough for me. dont be afraid to make easier than I expected. and God, dont let me lose it.*